WOW, that just says it all!?!?!?!?!?

I'm only guessing here but I'll bet English is not your first language and that was probably translated though Babelfish from something like Japanese, Korean, Russian, or one of the Arabic languages. And even though the translation was extremely rough I think I get the gist of what you are saying ... and my response:

I would rather be poor and working at a job I love than be well off, working for someone else, at a job I hated. As soon as the magick is out of a job, so is the love, desire and happiness. I cannot be tied to a desk no matter how many dollars are dangled in front of me anymore. But give me a few bucks and the chance to create and teach ... and suddenly I feel like a god!

I would rather shine in the shallows, than be dull in an ivory tower.

DAD

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I don't fear God anymore. Anything he/she can do to me now is only adding insult to injury!